RIP Robin Williams

I made it myself. You can take it and use it if you want to.

     I liked Robin Williams' acting. I thought he was funny. The movies left me rolling in laughter and hiccups [except for Good Will Hunting which was a more serious movie which I enjoyed for other reasons]. Who could forget Mrs. Doubtfire? Or Jack? Or The Bird Cage? Or Happy Feet?

     I didn't find out until the news broke of his suicide by hanging about his past addiction history or the clinical depression. Those things would not have changed my opinion of him as an actor. [I've never met him and I guess I won't meet him now].

     Robin Williams was not the first suicide of a recovering addict that I've known about. I lost a close friend to suicide [she jumped off of a bridge into traffic] some years ago. She did it clean but she was still dead. Two others also suicided that year-- they got drunk before pulling the trigger-- one of those was a severe diabetic who ensured his demise by also taking a bunch of diabetes meds all at once.

     I do not consider my buddies who suicided as being failures. I consider that the system and specifically the mental health treatment industry failed them miserably. This is why I support research and best practices. We need more research into how to provide the best truly individualized treatment for those of us who have addictions and / or mental health problems. We need more effective medications without the troubling side effects. 

     If you are a male teen, would you want to take an anti-psychotic that guarantees that you cannot get it up? If you are a native of India who is told that you "need" E.C.T., would you want it? Especially knowing that because of the shortage of muscle relaxants in your country, you are at high risk of breaking bones and teeth? If you are used to keeping your own counsel, would you be willing to be shuttled off to some group home because some professional decided that your living situation was "unstable?" As an older adult, would you want to sit through a day of a day treatment program where the professionals offer you the latest pop psychology? If you are a lesbian, would you want to sit through a filming and discussion of men and women being from different planets? What makes you think that we want to have those experiences if you don't want to have them?

     When the list of "acceptable" side effects for psych drugs are longer than the list of "acceptable" side effects for all other meds, there is a problem. When an atheist is forced to sit through yet another discussion of peoples' Higher Powers, that sort of treatment does not help. When adults are informed in a day treatment program that they will be expelled from that program for a couple of days because they cursed, something is wrong.

     No one wants to be talked down to. No one enjoys doing something they are forced to do that has no meaning for them. No one wants other people to make decisions for them.

     I can't help but wonder what Robin Williams' experiences were with psych drugs and professionals who claimed to have his best interest at heart.

radical sapphoq says: If you are thinking about killing yourself or about hurting yourself, tell someone. Get some help. If you find yourself stuck in the mental hell system or the addictions treatment industry, go to the National Empowerment Center's website at http://www.power2u.org/ and learn about self-empowerment. That information may not make you a more compliant patient. It may help you to become a more informed consumer. 
     Please stay alive. I've lost enough people to suicide. Thank you.

      

Utterly Amazing

Legal disclaimer: It is not my intention to defame anyone, to call anyone names, or to drive them to do bad things.  Everything that I've expressed below is my own opinion and only my opinion.  It does not bear the weight of law or of much else.  These are my opinions.  Part of the risk of freedom of expression is that we will run into others exercising their freedom of expression that we do not care for nor agree with.  If you do not care for my freedom of expression as found in this blog post or on any of my blogs, then by all means use your back button.  To remain is a sort of mental masturbation.


Once again-- just today-- I notice that there is yet another headline on http://www.cyberwarzone.com related to Lori Handrahan courtesy of "Bigs".  This is rather unfortunate.  When I surf over to cyberwarzone, I certainly am not there to read more about the latest claims of widespread conspiracy and pedophile rings involving one child.  Claims which the courts have steadfastly rejected.  There is something underneath the clamor in this particular chain of events that really bothers me.

What bothers me is The List.  The List in this case refers to the people, organizations and agencies within the state of Maine, and various departments within the government of the United States all of which Lori Handrahan is accusing of terrible and grave wrong-doing.  In reading through the various court documents available on-line [and there are many of those], I found some indication of a conspiracy theorem at work in Handrahan's brain.  It was not until I began to read through the emails written by Handrahan-- also freely available online-- that I caught a glimpse into the machinations of The List.  [ref: http://radicalsapphoq.blogspot.com/2013/03/so-whos-abusing-who.html].  While The List may not exist in a literal sense, it is obvious to me that the number of bad guys are ever-expanding.  Here is an example:  Over a period of months, Handrahan writes to the U.S. Department of Immigration and Customs Enforcement [I.C.E., or ICE] alleging that her ex-husband is residing in Maine illegally, got a green card under suspicious circumstances, should have been deported, was granted American citizenship under compromising circumstances, was involved in organized crime in Eastern Europe along with his family.  [Note the escalation there].  Having not received the satifaction of the Department doing her biding, a later email asks ICE if they are profiting from the selling of the young child into sexual slavery via a vast pedophilia ring operating in the State of Maine.  First she emails them for help over a period of months.  Then they become a target of her pedoheads-under-every-bush campaign.

In the United States there is something called the chain-of-custody.  Every bit of evidence referenced to or presented in a court proceeding must have gone through it.  When a woman brings the feces of a child into the Emergency Room, there is no chain-of-custody.  That particular feces sample might have originated from the child.  It also may have been picked up from a pile of dog shit in the park.  Or perhaps Mom, a second cousin, or the homeless dude on the street corner could have been pressed into service.  We simply don't know.  Taking it further, when Mom gives a friend a sample of the child's urine we don't know if the child urinated that sample of urine or not.  Even if the friend is a nurse, that friend did not gather the urine sample during the course of her duty.  That friend obtained the urine sample from the hand of Handrahan. 

Having studied all of the court documents and other items related to Lori Handrahan available to me on the web, I've got an educated guess about what will happen on April 17, 2013 when Handrahan is slated to show for a court hearing.  Whether the excuse is her fear of getting arrested in the State of Maine or that the date and time is inconvenient to her, it is my bet that she simply will not be there.  Handrahan has a partial history of skipping court.  If she does show up this time, I will admit to being shocked.  

Quite frankly, I think nothing short of a stint in the state pen will get Lori Handrahan to knock off the web publicity that she has been ordered to stop.  I am not entirely unsympathetic to the existence of a real or suspected personality disorder in an individual.  Nor am I unsympathetic to the difficulties involved in treating a human being for any mental condition and in particular personality disorders.  But Handrahan has not sought out treatment.  She has remained without any sort of counseling rather than get some counseling in exchange for being allowed to visit the child.  Voluntary treatment can and does work well for some number of people.  Handrahan does not wish mental health services.  While it can be argued that both options are dehumanizing in various degrees, to me talk therapy is preferable to doing prison time.  The evidence all over the Internet remains: Handrahan continues to publicize unsubstantiated information about the existence of a child porn ring in Maine.  It seems to me that she is using the existence of the child for her own self-promotion.  She keeps doing so in spite of a judge's order to quit it.  Although I hope that Handrahan will be able curtail the exhibition of her narcissistic rage all over the Internet, there is also the health and well-being of the child to consider.  The importance of the life, privacy, and security of the child must outweigh any consideration given toward the possible role of any mental conditions in the actions of the mother.  Even a mental condition that may have had partial origin in the possible abuse of the mother herself as a young child.

radical sapphoq says:  Maybe I am just another jokester hanging out on the electronic wires.  Even this jokester does not make fake Anonymous accounts on Twitter to give artificial credence to the lie that Anonymous is my personal army.  Anonymous is not my personal army.  I hate that the name of Anonymous was brought into this whole conflict between a woman, a man, and their child.

I have no axe to grind, I have no checks from Michael Waxman to cash, and any attempts at trolling that I've made in my youth resulted in FAIL.  Mad skillz in trolling-- I don't got 'em.  

Lori, I don't know you.  I am just another blogger in a vast sea of bloggers.  I wish for you the best but I fear the worst.  The worst is to live in the misery imposed by a personality disorder and/or other mental condition and/or untreated childhood trauma without the recognition that it doesn't have to be this way.  The only true shame in having a mental condition is to give in to it on a daily basis rather than addressing the issues.  It takes bravery and strength to ask for help.  Lori, I believe in you.  



http://www.cyberwarzone.com/legal-threats-waxman-lori-handrahan-about-exposing-her-daughters-child-abuse

Michael Woodbury

In today's Portland Herald was an article detailing the guilty plea of Michael Woodbury to the senseless murder of
three guys. Woodbury had entered a store in Conway thinking about stealing a car. Instead, he shot the store owner
[Woodbury was wanted in five states and did not wish the store owner to be able to identify him] and then shot down
the two guys blocking his exit from the store. He ran off in the woods, was found walking along some railroad
tracks, and confessed everything to the cops. Against the advice of his attorney, Woodbury did the only decent thing
and pled guilty. He declined to raise the "I am severely mentally ill" defense. Instead he chose to acknowledge
his responsibility and stated that he was not fit to be allowed in society. He was sentenced to life without any
possibility of parole.

Woodbury had begged not to turned loose out of prison on May 4th after his last sentence was done. He had written
a letter to prison officials asking to be sent to the state hospital. So consequently when he got out, he went on
a five state crime spree and ended it in the sixth state by shooting down three men.

So goes it. Seems to me that if a guy is saying, "Hey, I feel like killing people" someone should pay attention to
that and care enough to make arrangements to send him onward to the state hospital.

Or perhaps Michael Woodbury could have found a way to turn himself in [breaking a window in a local emergency room
while screaming, "I am the lamb of god" comes to mind] and garner enough attention to make it stick. It seems these
days that only the NAMI mommies are successful at getting anyone committed for psych treatment.

I'm sorry that he got out of prison to commit more crimes and then to off three people. I rejoice that Michael
Woodbury chose to stop the perpetration of attorney-sponsered fraud and allow himself to be put away for life.

There may not be any winners in this whole state of affairs, but at least there won't be any more losers.

radical sapphoq